Me and my Lone Ranger

Got home from visiting kent in the hospital. His surgery was successful today..{ as of right now.. things are going smoothly} His surgery was a little over 3 hours, and took 2.5 hours in the recovery area trying to get his pain down. I feel so sad for him, I have truly never seen him in so much pain, and just being un comfortable, however we both know this is what he needed.. His doctor's and nurses advised him/me that this is going to be a long road as the type of operation, and estimating him to stay in the hospital from 5-10 more days.From talking with his surgeon, the block was so severe that it was only a matter of time before things were quite different. I am truly grateful for his nurses, they are truly amazing. It's never easy seeing your loved one's in pain, blessed that this will be the beginning to better health for him, securing his longer future! Happy new years everyone! So, as I bring in the new year grateful for kent's health and me and the Boy's as well.. Kaid is passed out, it's just me and my lone ranger Karsey.. I am crossing my finger he stays up.. lol.. He's been eating candy.. Is it selfish I just want a toast for New Years?

Man.. I think it's just going to me and my " Pretend" friend.. AIR......

Goodnight Boys.. Happy New Years.. Good Night Kent.. We sure Love you Bunches!!

I love you Blue Eyes

Over the past several weeks.. kent has been feeling really ill. Emergency room's, medications, then.. it seems he feels "slightly" better. Four days ago, I took him to the ER again, with severe pain in lower abdomen, 3 hours later..MRI/CT/xray.. they did find Blockage in his intestines. Man... Cant they just give him like oil or something? { totally kidding..}. So, the discharge paper's advised to meet with our surgeon the next day at 8am. This Monday came, within the first ten min of meeting with the surgeon, and pressing on his stomach, { painful for Kent} he said he was admitting him. { Whoa, whoa... Wait.. this is not happening, I mean... Kent is needing to go to work, to take care of us..} This is what I am thinking... How life can change in just days..

Fast forward to today..

He is still in Sw Medical hospital, and Surgery is scheduled for Friday. I am so scared, and grateful at the same time, is this even possible? Scared that the support /provider is going to be " out of commission" for quite sometime. Scared that.. Momma needs to find a JOB ASAP! Scared to not let the boys see my stress level escalate, and see me cry unable to stop. Scared, that something will be discovered while in surgery. As of now, it's 18" of his intestines, and colon that need to be cut out, and re-attached. I am sure.. I will be learning so much more. The Doctor did advise kent that they will be doing a biopsy to check for cancer in the colon, THAT IS WHAT just terrifies me. I have been prepped for for quite some time for this..lovely trial, Granted, I truly thought I had a little more time to prepare. I still need to finish my schooling for my degree, I am So close, yet.... with my lovely trial that have taught me... Schooling has been slightly challenging to finish, { IT WILL BE DONE} This is My 2011 GOAL!

I truly have So much to be Grateful for, So much to thank Heavenly Father for. I am not going to say I love my trials... However I love how much more in tune to my savior I become, directing me to the right path. I have had some amazing spiritual events that have happened in the last several days to testify to me just how much my Heavenly Father loves me and my family. I know with every fiber in my body that we are So not alone in our trials, We are So not alone~ I love you all, and the posts' in the future might be.. just about what is going on with kent.. For my therapy.. to just release all what Is happening...

xo- Dre

( blue is kent's nickname.. as you can tell why..)

I miss my Blue eyes staring back at me.. I love you Kent.. We will all get though this

together and know you have love and support waiting for you! XO

Reflection

These last few weeks have been ones of deep reflection. Last year was much more difficult for me. I try hard not to think back, as it's all about " moving forward" . Heavenly Father, Friends/family, Music, Disney movies, are the things I clung on to with everything I had. I am deeply moved by others around me that have taught me what strength is, and pushing forward to endure to the end. There are little special moments that are unsaid, that just touch your life from others actions. I am truly grateful for what my lesson's, - granted I truly wish I could have skipped some of them, I know I gained so much knowledge. I love what this time of year bring, Christ is the Reason for the Season. life could have been far different for us, if we did not have him. I journaled a lot last year, one of the things I did was write quotes down I heard or were sent to me. Tonight as I was organizing I found where I placed them. I slowly pealed the pages back, I still have a hard time reading all of them, having the feelings flood back. ( I am sorry if this is so Vague..those that know what was going on last year.. this is it..)

Reflection is good and bad for me, good to know where I was and what I never { with in my power.} want to go through again, Bad in the fact.. it brings back the emotions and old feelings that bring me to tears.

There are special happenings that are going on all around us, there are angels everywhere.. only now when I can " See" I can not begin to say how HF/just knows me. I am moved by the people that I have meet in our new ward and past.

Friends... lastly.. In our new ward, there is a Sweet family that has a Very Sick little boy that is in the hospital. Truly heartbreaking. Please If you can/have time.. Read this. Prayers.. Even if you do not know him/or his family.. I truly know all the prayers will be felt, for his speedy recovery. Thank you :)

Here is one of my quotes I have in my journal.

"At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person. Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us."

Albert Schweitzer

Iam posting these pictures, from last year as this was right before.. I just smile.

These boys are my ray of light.

The last few months have been a blur.. here's a little..

OK... I have been really really dreading this post. I have been so good for so long, however I have been quite behind. To be quite honest, I have been feeling a little lame on my postings.. after looking at so many of your blogs, and the beautifully crafted words, how most post sounds likea poem.. I have been feeling a little inadequate. So, after that is out in the open.. here is what has kept me very busy.. I will hope that 2011 will be better for me. This is my resolution~

Dec 1st. the official Play school Nativity set.

{aka, the I totally do not mind them playing, as long as they leave the tree along}

I was really trying to take some random pictures of Kar, he's a tough little cookie.
So, Dad was Awesome of breaking this Binky habit when I was gone on the

cruise, then.. I came home and look what karson has again.. the Blue Evil { bebe}

Thanks Giving

kar, Bren,Kaid.. Thanksgiving day at mom's
My Red Velvet cupcakes, Yeah.. they were So Yummy!

FHE Wii Night.

oh, my I could not stop laughing. Kar did this 100% on his own, I was just starting

the beloved dishwasher, and came into this beautiful guitarist.
And then Kaid had to show his brother who was the jammer..

Seriously.. a moment in time. If you know kaid, you will know that 2 things he

has not quite done a lot, 1- sit still for 5 min. 2. sit by his brother w/o hitting him.

Trick Or Treat

Our cute little elephant.. he was toasty warm..
Man.. with the look, you would really think he was going to do some crime fighting!

way to go batman!
Ding dong.. both brothers took turns ringing the door.. 1/2 of them answered as we took

them out at 5pm! I was a little weird this year with being early, to get them in bed. {school night.}

Happy 2nd Birthday Karson!

Man, I uploaded the wrong pic.{ should have been karson the 1st.}
It's a great one of my mom.. Jury is still out on my picture.
Kent made this, karson was totally loving all Mickey mouse!
His' #1 favorite toy he got, " Stinky" { I try to hide it.. it's quite obnoxious w/farting noises.}
kaid just got finishing singing happy birthday to kar. I could NOT get kar to take a picture..

I need to get someone in here that' can take his pic.

Girls Caribbean Vacation

What was in our hands pretty often, virgin strawberry daiquiris.. Yummo!!
Me and my sister..Miami right before we boarded the boat.
Last sunset in the Caribbean, such a magical place.
What greeted us every night, a new little friend, this was the cutest!
Royal Caribbean pool deck! Pool party
Formal night on the cruise, Miss the food, Oh how tasty.. and the Rolls.. Oh.. man..
Me and mom, in lovely LONG Beach airport.

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Im still here..

I have been Really bad about my blog lately.. I have updated my music though. The songs in the play list are the kids Fav's.. Dynamite, Kaid knows all the words, and Usher as well.. I don't even listen to them.. So.. Even though I have not updated my photos yet.. you can hear what I listen to 10x a day.. with the boys grabbing any object to use as a microphone.

and I feel rightfully so... Things have been Non-stop..

I will be updating tonight..{ hopefully, } if not.. I wish everyone a very Safe & warm thanksgiving!

here come the holidays!!

xo- Andrea

Happy Birthday Sweet little Karson!

I cant believe 2 years has past. I remember just like it was yesterday going in to the hospital, anticipating his sweet arrival. I have been So busy these last few months, resulting in me LAGGING on blogging. I will update more about his cute little party that he had today. Six little boys came over, and played and giggled. Karson was so excited.. { making picture taking nearly impossible} It was truly so sweet to watch him interact with his friends. Several times I had to remind karson not to keep picking up slugs, him and his friend though that was the funniest. His highlight was his New BFF, " Stinky" Aka.. his new Matchbox garbage truck. Needles to say, I think it's quite annoying, though it keeps him entertained for hours. I am So beat right now, it's 11pm, which is bizarre.. given my 3am & 4am bedtime routines, I think its all catching up with me.

{Below are on Monday for FHE, we made halloween sugar cookies, granted I think karson just ate all the frosting.}

Birthday Relaxation

I usually Love LOVE birthdays, however mine is a little different. I was actually feeling a little old when I woke up on Sunday, ( Sep 26Th ) After all, I am now in my Official early 30's, I wish that I could say that I was still in my 20's, though I do have to admit 30's are Way Fun! I woke up to the boys singing happy birthday, 2 sweet lovely cards and balloon. I told Kent all I wanted for my birthday was a Day of Relaxation, doing ZERO, Nada, nothing! It was very nice to be pampered and and loved not touching a dish. Kent made The BEST, cake ever! I am not even kidding.. I have truly never had a better tasting cake.. I think I gained a few lbs just looking at it, then the tasting.. Oh, so creamy and just melted in my mouth. Dinner was Corn Beef Brisket, Yummy salad & fruit W/rolls. I have to admit.. I have not eaten red meat for quite a long time, just for health reasons, However.. I broke this for Kent's dinner. OH man.. I really did pay for it afterwards though... ( My stomach hurt for hours..) only from a little bit too. My parents came over, and I got such Beautiful cast-iron oven dishes. Candy Apple Red, Navy blue, and Lemon Yellow. B*E*A*U*T*I*F*U*L I loved everything! One year for sure older, though I do feel a little wiser, believe it or not.. I have quite a bit of life lessons under my belt, cant wait to see what another year will prepare me for. Thanks for all your Birthday wishes!!

Karson Of course dove in the cake..
Kaids Plate { eats only filling and frosting..}