Pure Love

Today as Karson and I drove to Jansen Beach ( 1/2 point for the bus) I just began to cry. The tears rolled down my cheeks for the Pure Love I have for them. I know being mom's we sometimes might loose sight of the " little" things they might do. As well as the other moments that just take your breath away. Karson was having a little conversation with me while I was driving, as I was taking it all in ( the fact that he's 17mo. in a week) I was not too sure if this was " Normal " Up until today, I have been comparing karson to what kaid did, or didn't do, not truly meaning to. When Karson began to point to the sky, looking at the passing airplane, ( making the sound as well) and moving his little cute hand in a little five finger motion, I just was so blessed. This might sound weird, however this is all new to me, I very much feel like a Brand new parent. This little interaction lasted only a few minuets, though left me crying with complete gratitude, of the miracle of life. I know cheesy.. But for me these days.. I needed a Cheesy moment! I am so grateful that I can have the opportunity also to be a mom to Kaid. To teach him, & guide him with the correct principals. The road is NOT easy most of the time, But I do know just how rewarding it is & knowing what a special spirit he is. I would be not nearly the type of mom today if it was not for Kaid. I sometimes had a tough time relating to people when they complained about their children, with-out needs. I've heard people say, " I just could never do that." or " Have a child with Special needs, esp with Down Syndrome, not for me I've heard it all... Unless you are heartless, Spineless.. Yes you could!! What precious little life is given to you is your job. How well you can handle situations, how you raise your child the best possible.. etc. Why would anyone want to miss out on such a Learning, and teaching opportunity is way beyond me. I've seen things that have happened to kaid, and having him still here to talk about it. I am not trying to " toot " my own horn about my little guys, it's taken me a while to see what I see, with kaid. There were times, when I really thought I could not handle being his mom anymore,(sad to admit..) I thought there might be a special home for him, or school that he could live at giving him all the care that I just could not. Just writing it now makes my heart break all over again, just that I thought about this. Within a few hours, after saying this out loud, and just how I could not do it anymore, I felt a peace, a peace I have Never felt in my life before. I know without a shadow of a doubt, no mater how hard life is with kaid, we are in it to win it! Love these little Dudes!!