He will not give us more than we can handle?

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me." ~Erma Bombeck

I am really not sure why I have to be pushed for so long, at such maxed out levels. I do have faith that I am needing to learn, grow from these experiences. I am really at the end of the rope with feeling like a complete failure with our sweet, yet extremely challenging kaid. With that out in the universe now, our life is also dedicated to a wonderful, lovable 3 year old as well that wants just as much of our attention then his older brother.

Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint on it you can. ~Danny Kaye

I have been wanting to write a post for a long time, however I have been without words as to how this will come across. This is me, this is how I feel and I need to just explode!!

Nothing in all the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity- Martin Luther King

I would love LOVE to wake up with peace and calmness, just once..

I would love to not be kicked,punched,and slapped..by my 8year old everyday.

I would love to understand what my child wants/needs

I would love to not see my 3 year old scream in fear of his brother

I would love to not have to hide in my room with karson, in fear of getting hit from kaid.

I would love for people to not stare at me when I have to go to the store, and kaid is uncontrollable.

I would love for others to remember some kids do not fit in the "cookie cutter mold"

I would love for kaid to wake up and be happy 24/7

I would love for people to educate themselves with what disabilities are. they have ABILITIES!

I would love for people to not be so ignorant.

I would love for kaid to feel calm

I would love peace

I would love for all his challenges to go away

I wish he would have friends to play with

I wish people would want to play with him

I wish other would know just a sliver of what I deal with DAILY

I hope I might always listen to the promptings to guide my children

I hope this passes soon.