Tonight I have Hit a wall. At times I wish this was literal..( kidding..) Really, I am just extremely frustrated. I feel as a mom I do so much to just make the boys happy, then the hubs, do the school work, finish CNA, hurry up to finish school.. and then there's the lack of time to just breathe. I feel even bad just writing this out. I am too tired to lift a pen, and writing on my laptop seems WAY easier. Tonight, my Camera died..well.. I am not sure what happened to it..It just does not seem to work like It use to.( It's fuzzy..haaa) THIS is where I am FRUSTRATED!! I have Zero clue how to use this Gadget my Lovely hubby bought me several years back. For Professional photog's (not an amateur like me) nonetheless.. I was grateful and started snapping pictures right away. And now it's broken, It's just "Stuff". Though this would be such an easy fix before, either fix it, or replace it. Though this transition in our family ( School, unemployment..) is a difficult one for me. I am loving all I have learned, yet.. still feel clueless on life, Really? I m seeing the bigger hand, though, the day to day mindless junk that gets infiltrated just gets to much to deal with. Just when the storm calms down for a bit, there is one soon approaching. I feel just beat down, I wish sometimes people would just know what was going on with each other, read there minds ( that could be bad though) I have always been a person that wears my heart on my sleeve, though lately, I have been quite calloused. I see this about me, and It makes me sad. At times I just get sad to how much fun I " use to" have, just with my friends, and having time for them. I cant believe that I am actually writing this. It's just really killing me.. Has anyone just wanted to say something to someone but if you did the person would most likely get so offended resulting to never speak to you again?? I just wish there was not such a huge brick wall up for so many people that are in my life. I just wish that when you say something to other's they would really know that you meant it, and were honest about it. Almost Ten years together and it's like sometimes the things he Say's comes out of the woodwork.. to be SO random.. yet leaves me mad that he got our " Conversation" wrong.. lol
Growing up my parents taught me the golden rule, and I have lived by this, OR have TRULY tried.. " Do unto others as you would have done unto you." I do this..... but what happens when you get the life sucked right out of you.. and you have zero, Nada, a FAT Nothing left to give??? Oh.. I know.. YOU KEEP GIVING!!! Do it until... That's Right.. ( Sarcasm tonight..)
Well.. on a side note.. the Boys are Awesome! and Kent is Getting straight A's!
****** Warning LOTS of Pictures ************* I just decided to do a major pic post as well.
Uncle Kory loves the boys
Surgery day May 2011
Key fell asleep at Breakfast
Pretty much sums Karr up... Ball's Balls Balls!
Oh, and Mixing.. he's my little Scientist..
The BEST Sensory New Toy! Better then Play Doh.
Seriously..They got in my Snowboarding gear
Watching me do Yoga in the Am.
Wiggly.. Wiggly..Boy that I love!
Our Destination Vacation.. Great Wolf.. Kid Camp Room
I miss this little guy..He's growing too fast..
Our Good Friends the Hatch's/Family
Mid-singing..
Amy & Lance Hatch
Key
Dozer Days 5/2011
Family Hike, at Lacamas Lake
All on his own. Posed for the camera.
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Yeah, sometimes you just have to get it out! Don't feel bad writing it. I think sometimes we feel like we are the only ones who feel frustrated or overwhelmed or overworked, so we feel bad that it gets to us, but I've learned over the years that these things are much more common than we realize. You are WAY busy, so it's no wonder you feel completely spent! I can't believe everything your family is doing! WOW!! Good job!! Amazing! And I'm glad you went to Great Wolf! I bet that felt really good! :) Great pictures, too! Fun to see. :)
Jenn- Thank you! I am slowly getting back into this Blog world.. It's hard to just carve out time.. but.. little chunks I can.
Andrea,
You are such an awesome person! It's good for you to get that stuff out of your system and not hold it inside cuz then you will really explode :) Love ya girl!!
I love you! here's a {{{{HUG}}}}...don't forget that someday they will appreciate what you do for them. Most days I'm amazed at the things my mom did while I was growing up and never realized it until now many years later. I don't know how you do it all but you are wonderful!
School is one of the most stressful things a person can add to their life. In the end it is good, very good, but it is a major stress at the time. Hang in there! All will be well . . . someday. ;)
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