Two Monkeys: June 2011

Tonight I have Hit a wall. At times I wish this was literal..( kidding..) Really, I am just extremely frustrated. I feel as a mom I do so much to just make the boys happy, then the hubs, do the school work, finish CNA, hurry up to finish school.. and then there's the lack of time to just breathe. I feel even bad just writing this out. I am too tired to lift a pen, and writing on my laptop seems WAY easier. Tonight, my Camera died..well.. I am not sure what happened to it..It just does not seem to work like It use to.( It's fuzzy..haaa) THIS is where I am FRUSTRATED!! I have Zero clue how to use this Gadget my Lovely hubby bought me several years back. For Professional photog's (not an amateur like me) nonetheless.. I was grateful and started snapping pictures right away. And now it's broken, It's just "Stuff". Though this would be such an easy fix before, either fix it, or replace it. Though this transition in our family ( School, unemployment..) is a difficult one for me. I am loving all I have learned, yet.. still feel clueless on life, Really? I m seeing the bigger hand, though, the day to day mindless junk that gets infiltrated just gets to much to deal with. Just when the storm calms down for a bit, there is one soon approaching. I feel just beat down, I wish sometimes people would just know what was going on with each other, read there minds ( that could be bad though) I have always been a person that wears my heart on my sleeve, though lately, I have been quite calloused. I see this about me, and It makes me sad. At times I just get sad to how much fun I " use to" have, just with my friends, and having time for them. I cant believe that I am actually writing this. It's just really killing me.. Has anyone just wanted to say something to someone but if you did the person would most likely get so offended resulting to never speak to you again?? I just wish there was not such a huge brick wall up for so many people that are in my life. I just wish that when you say something to other's they would really know that you meant it, and were honest about it. Almost Ten years together and it's like sometimes the things he Say's comes out of the woodwork.. to be SO random.. yet leaves me mad that he got our " Conversation" wrong.. lol

Growing up my parents taught me the golden rule, and I have lived by this, OR have TRULY tried.. " Do unto others as you would have done unto you." I do this..... but what happens when you get the life sucked right out of you.. and you have zero, Nada, a FAT Nothing left to give??? Oh.. I know.. YOU KEEP GIVING!!! Do it until... That's Right.. ( Sarcasm tonight..)

Well.. on a side note.. the Boys are Awesome! and Kent is Getting straight A's!

****** Warning LOTS of Pictures ************* I just decided to do a major pic post as well.