Day dreaming..

So, I just feel like I have not a whole lot lately say, update, just feeling a little blah. Tonight as I was Turing in my assignment for Art history, ( we are studying Greek architecture) I truly traveled back in time. I use to live in Greece, Yes live. See live to me, even a meager short 4 months, was the BEST experience I have yet to have, ( regards to moving..lol )

From the rich thick culture, to the stately order the Greeks had everything. From going to theAthena's Parthenon, and the Porch of the Maidens, Erechteion Athens, I want TO GO BACK..

Well.. I can go back in my dreams at least.. Jumping off the huge cliffs, in the the warm water.. then laying in the hot sand.. yup sounds really great right now. My feet are Freezing!!

The Parthenon.. Amazing!!!
Patmos,Greece St. John's Monastary...
One of my Views EVERY MORNING!!

Porch Of the Maidens,-- Ok.. as I am looking at this either it's blown up huge or a different

Pronaos.

Where I am

As I have been going through this tough time in my life, It's hard for me not to just " Wish" I could Peek into the future and see what's to come. If you asked me a few years ago, what I would be doing, I would say something Very far off from where I am now. I want to get it across first, Just how truly Grateful I am that I am with my two Awesome parents, Yes, we tend to get in each others Hair, sort of speaking, but I just would not know what to do with out them.

I have been doing quite a bit of soul searching these last few months, How truly amazing our Heavenly Father truly is. I know that he knows me, and knows just what Pain I'm in. It bring me comfort to listen to comforting music, to bring it all home. As my friend, was going through a really hard time in life as well, she introduced me to the artists that now I have on my play list. I use to think that they were " holy rollers" music... but when you are going through a Huge Trial in life, and you really think that there is No end in sight, It's amazing to listen to these words, knowing that we have a loving savior watching over us, crying when we cry, never letting us fall.

I want to tell all my friends how much I love you, Thank you for not just hating me for just dropping off the earth. I am taking 12 credits, and school seems to be really holding me together right now as well knowing there is So much Wonderful Support I have. I really was worried there in the beginning, thinking that my stress would not let me do about anything.

All I know is there is another day tomorrow.. I know I have two sweet boys that when my eyes open, I have there Georges faces looking right at me when I awake. I pray deeply for my husband, I really love him, I love everything about him, the true man that I met. I really truly believe that one day we will all be reunited and one family. I know that through hard trials, we can only see things for what they are, and what we TRULY deserve. I will be contacting all my LDS friends, my Time is coming soon to go to the temple... I have waited long enough, and now more than ever I need to be there. Thank you for those that listen, and bring me your light. Chaps.. 3 DAYS!! Yippee!! am I excited??? I think so....!!! It will be FUN!!!

Changes...

I am Sad that the holidays' are over, and I am also extremely happy as well. There have been some major changes that have happened here in our life these last few weeks, and I have been just barley able to take a peek at a few blogs, let alone catch up. The holiday's were very special with the boys, and spending the moments with my family. As I sit here tonight, I have a heavy heart, I was looking back at my last years blog, and just was amazed at where I am not from then. It really goes to show, you NEVER know what life is going to be like, you can Plan what' happens' and you can Do EVERYTHING YOU can to make the " Right" choices, and stay on the path, however you can not get others to choose the same as you. My heart has been breaking these last few weeks for my boys, and my family as we are going though some really hard times, as we are doing the best we possibly can to stay strong. I am very grateful for the amazing friends and family that I have, and the boys have that can lift them up, to help ease them into this new stage of our life. I start school on Monday the 4Th, and am VERY excited for my future! When the days come that I do not want to get out of bed, or I do not even want to get dressed for the day, I just look at my two angles, and know how I want to give them the very best..
I will talk with you Next Year!!! SO excited!!!!