** Update..Meeting with Director of Special Education in our School District..IT's Happening!

Together,NCLB and IDEA hold schools accountable for making sure students with disabilities achieve high standards. In the words of Secretary Spellings, "The days when we looked past the underachievement of these students are over. No Child Left Behind and the IDEA 2004 have not only removed the final barrier separating special education from general education, they also have put the needs of students with disabilities front and center. Special education is no longer a peripheral issue. It's central to the success of any school."

It feels like I go in long spans of Blogging silence, and then a huge explosion of events. This short 5 months of Kaids 3rd Grade have been some of the most difficult for our family. I guess I do a fairly decent job ( hate that kudos on your back business.) of not seeing sometimes that things are not going well. If you are familiar with IEP's you know that they are very extensive, goals, details,time lines..etc. We have been with the school on So many occasions, Behavior..this..that.. and 2 weeks ago we came in for a re-evaluation of his earlier IEP, only to have his teacher say that Kaid had NOT, i repeat NOT been receiving Special services that was listed in his IEP. I am not going to go in details.. but.. this has been a tough 2 weeks, and longer if you know just how much I have been fighting for his rights, advocating the BEST we can, as Any parent would. From laughing to Crying, to screaming, to down right Pissed off, This is a Good place. What I have learned through this process is #1, you do What EVER you can for your kids, ( honestly) #2. I have always thought being the "nice"guy will pay off... Sorry, that is not the case. At least, it's what i have been experiencing.. I am a UPSET momma, and I have the LAW on my side, I feel like an outlaw or something, going in to meet the Sheriff, it sounds weird, that I would say OUTlaw, but.. Please.. what " they" the school,& district, have been able to do, is completely WRONG. I am praying for change, I am hoping for my nerves to be calm. I know that I am an advocate for the Many MANY mom's that I have talked with that are/have experienced similar situations with their School District, not following IEP's or The Law. I am Ready for this, I know I am on the right side, and only want the best.

I am taking 14credit In college, Kent is taking 15, Work Full-time.. Busy 3 year old.. However this is on my mind all the time.. Giving the school the Benefit of the Doubt, has been for 6+ years.. I think that Is VERY generous don't you? Friday, you can not come soon enough!

He will not give us more than we can handle?

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me." ~Erma Bombeck

I am really not sure why I have to be pushed for so long, at such maxed out levels. I do have faith that I am needing to learn, grow from these experiences. I am really at the end of the rope with feeling like a complete failure with our sweet, yet extremely challenging kaid. With that out in the universe now, our life is also dedicated to a wonderful, lovable 3 year old as well that wants just as much of our attention then his older brother.

Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint on it you can. ~Danny Kaye

I have been wanting to write a post for a long time, however I have been without words as to how this will come across. This is me, this is how I feel and I need to just explode!!

Nothing in all the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity- Martin Luther King

I would love LOVE to wake up with peace and calmness, just once..

I would love to not be kicked,punched,and slapped..by my 8year old everyday.

I would love to understand what my child wants/needs

I would love to not see my 3 year old scream in fear of his brother

I would love to not have to hide in my room with karson, in fear of getting hit from kaid.

I would love for people to not stare at me when I have to go to the store, and kaid is uncontrollable.

I would love for others to remember some kids do not fit in the "cookie cutter mold"

I would love for kaid to wake up and be happy 24/7

I would love for people to educate themselves with what disabilities are. they have ABILITIES!

I would love for people to not be so ignorant.

I would love for kaid to feel calm

I would love peace

I would love for all his challenges to go away

I wish he would have friends to play with

I wish people would want to play with him

I wish other would know just a sliver of what I deal with DAILY

I hope I might always listen to the promptings to guide my children

I hope this passes soon.

I am barley here, T- for Timeout !

Finial are next week.. the End of summer term is almost over. I will NOT ever EVER.. EVER take summer term again. Hardest 8weeks, my little dudes have been really patient with me, for that I would LOVE to take them to Greece. Last week when we were cleaning, our photo albums came out, and I was able to show them all Greece when I lived there for a short time, How awesome it would be to be back.

This poor little blog.. Man I have lost interest.. My once, love for writing in here, has turned into a pretty pitiful blog,( admitting it's the first step right..lol. ) So, now that that's out of the way.. I am going to Work on it. I still have no clue how other's have time to blog, tell me how, and I will..Teach me the ways oh masters of blog land.. ( little sarcasm.)

Some things that I Would just Love.. and some things are just meant to come again later. I have heard this stage in our life, the --" Phase" will pass. Contrary to this we have been scratching out heads.. wondering when, when will the......... throwing food, peeing on the floor, locking the bathroom door while dumping out sweet little ol' " Mr. Bubbles " out & water all over the floor, squeezing bugs, scraped knees, soggy goldfish crackers will pass.. When?? I am Truly putting in my time here.. but People this momma is Really tired. It's from Sun up. 6am, until 1030pm. screaming constantly..This is my vent. I Do not wish this on anyone, I love being a mom, however that's hardly what I feel like. Kent and I, have had to really lean on one another. What does not Break us will make us stronger right... Bring it!

1. A Camera..Our camera has taken a turn for the worse, and it is not going to survive..complexity in having a camera I cant figure out anyways..

2. ORDER!! wouldn't that be Awesome! I would just LOVE Love.. Oh man LoVe to sleep in my cozy bed without KIDS, or our office space put together, papers all tucked away in their little cubbies, pencils all sharpened, soft music playing, Yeah that will be only in my dreams I know.. but these pictures will have to do for now.

1. Clean living room=dreamy

2. Sleep in my own bed, W/zero kids!
3.Living room w/out crayon marks on furniture=heaven
4. Organization Main "hub"= Ye ah!
5. Tucked away Tv & Toys= no tripping and stubbing toes..

6. Do I need to say anything?? I think not.. Priceless
A clean office..

This is Dreamy... I would Love... Someday.. Someday..